In Your Atmosphere.

The song below is one of the sweetest, saddest songs in all the land about being in love. Like I'm talking top 3, at least. If there's one song that can bring me to tears at any time... it's this one. 

John Mayer- In Your Atmosphere (Live in L.A.)

I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore

I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore
I don't know what it's like to land and not race to your door
I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore

I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore
I'm not sure that I really ever could
Hold on to your hotel key in your bedroom neighborhood
Me sleepwalkin' in Hollywood

I'm gonna steer clear 
and burn up in your atmosphere
I'm gonna steer clear
cause I'd die if I saw you, I'd die if I didn't see you there
So I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore

Ooooooooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooooooooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooooooooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, oooooooh

I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore
I get lost on the boulevard at night
Without your voice to tell me "I love you, take a right"
The 10 and the 2 is the lonliest sight

I'm gonna steer clear
and burn up in your atmosphere
I'm gonna steer clear
cause I'd die if I saw you, I'd die if I didn't see you

I'm gonna steer clear, aww yea
and burn up in your atmosphere
I'm gonna steer clear
cause I'd die if I saw you, I'd die if I didn't see you there, see you there

I think I'm gonna stay, gonna stay in the grey
I think I'm gonna stay
And all the streetlights say nevermind, nevermind
And the canyon lines say nevermind
And sunset says we see this all the time
Nevermind, never you mind

Wherever I go, whatever I do
I wonder where I am in my relationship to you
Wherever you go, wherever you are
I watch your life play out in pictures from afar

Wherever I go, whatever I do
I wonder where I am in my relationship to you
Wherever you go, wherever you are
I watch that pretty life play out in pictures from afar

oooooohhh, oooooooh, oh, oh oh
oooooohhh, oooooooh, oh, oh oh
oooooohhh, oooooooh, oh, oh oh
oooooohhh, oooooooh, oh, oh oh, oooh oh ohh ohhh oh

This song is love. Like can you even  imagine feeling that way about someone? John Mayer is a lyrical genius. He's like my male Taylor Swift, except I don't love him nearly as much. I first heard this song by accident and immediately fell in love with it. I remember I listened to it about 100 times that day, and the day after that and the day after that. And life hasn't been the same since. Okay okay, I'm kidding. But really, it's awesome. Every line in this song is so detailed and it just makes me feel so bad for John Mayer, not knowing whether this was his reality or all made up in his head. Either is enough to want to run up to him and give him the biggest hug. The thing is... whoever he is talking about, he was head over heels unlike I've ever heard or seen before. It's such a depressing but beautiful way to be the way he describes in this song. I'm not even sure how those two adjectives go together but I usually lay down crying and saying "aweeee" at the same time. I'm not going to go through the whole song because I think you pretty much get my point. And it just might go on forever. But I do want to point out a few things.

First of all, "I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore." He literally considers staying away from an entire city because it represents and reminds him of the girl that he loves. Like, he can't even disassociate the two. And trust me, I really don't think he's gonna go to LA anymore. I mean he did say it six times. I counted. Or maybe he only did that because he was trying to convince himself that he wouldn't, when he really was and wanted to more than anything.

Second. "I'd die if I saw you, I'd die if I didn't see you there." Well, that's unfortunate. I guess my logic from the last paragraph (the method of repeating to convince himself)  makes sense after all. It's like a lost cause for him because he'll either be wanting her and thinking about her so much that he wants to see her desperately or see her and experience all the negative feelings assosicated with what he already knows he's missing. I mean he's basically saying there is absolutely no way around loving her and needing her no matter what he does.

And at last... "Wherever I go, whatever I do. I wonder where I am in my relationship to you. Wherever you go, wherever you are, I watch your life play out in pictures from afar." Wow... just wow. Hands down, the best part of the song. And the part that really lets us know just how much he loves her, even though it was more than clear the first half of the song. The amount of love he has for her is truly unreal. Do you realize what he's saying here? He bases the significance of what he does and where he is, all around her. How close he is to her, even when he knows he's not going to end up in the same spot as her... ever. And he knows that. But it's just the mere thought that brings him peace, even if it's just a little. And the saddest fact of them all... that he is not a part of her life anymore. Like at all. I mean he only sees her through pictures. But it seems like he's so grateful for that even though that's not even close to what he truly wants. But for him, that's better than absolutely nothing. Nothing is what would kill him.

"In Your Atmosphere" is that one little savior that reminds me that love is the realeast -physical, emotional and mental- feeling in the entire world. And I just don't think there's anything I can explain further than that.

The video below is a story that I did last semester, in which I was able to incorporate "In Your Atmosphere" in. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do every time I watch it.

Behind a Smile

Reporter: Courtney Allen