Big Girl, Big City.

One of the biggest compliments I've ever received was from the most unlikely of people: my ex-boyfriend. Not unlikely because we hate eachother, or because we ended our relationship a horrible note. It's actually nothing like that. It's unlikely because ex-boyfriends just aren't supposed to do that; be supportive, say nice things and check on how you're doing. At least I didn't think so. But mine did... mine does. I had never heard "Big Girl Big City" until he text me one day, telling me to listen to it because the song reminded him so much of me and that it was my life. My first reaction was "Oh lordy..." I'm not going to lie, I was nervous. "Big Girl Big City" could go north or south. Turns out, it was north...

If I had to pick a biography for my older self, it would be this song.

Bei Maejor- Big Girl Big City

Go girl, get it girl. Show em' whatchu got
I hope you really know that you're worth a whole lot
With the world in your hands, you ain't neva gon' stop
Naw you gon' make it to the top

Go girl, get it girl. Show em' whatchu got
I hope you really know that you're worth a whole lot
With the world in your hands, you ain't neva gon' stop
Naw you gon' make it to the top

Such a big girl livin' in a big city
Remember high school you was just pretty
Now you in college ya lookin' so beautiful
Ya got your nails did, I see your lil cuticles
Ya got five classes working two jobs though
Can only get a little help from ya moms though
It's all good tell momma you don't need it
Cause you a big girl and everybody see it
I know ya pops probably really really proud of ya
He'll do anything just to see a smile on ya
And if them dudes ever try to act foul on ya
You know that he gon' be the one to put it down for ya
Oh, you hear em' say you ain't ready to be alone
You won't survive out here on your own
But you don't care what they sayin'
Graduation time gon' raise your hand

Work for the money gon' get it girl
Show em' what you got chu a big girl
People gon' hate cause they don't know
Don't know how much you want it baby

Go girl, get it girl
Show em' whatchu got
I hope you really know that you're worth a whole lot
With the world in your hands, you ain't neva gon' stop
Naw you gon' make it to the top

Go girl, get it girl
Show em' whatchu got
I hope you really know that you're worth a whole lot
With the world in your hands, you ain't neva gon' stop
Naw you gon' make it to the top

Still such a big girl livin' in a big city
You neva sleep now it seems ya too busy
You got goals so you're steady trynna stack it up
Set your boyfriend to left he was acting up
New job so your down with the roomates
Your best friend two months from her due date
Your gonna be a god mother very soon babe
You let the use the guest room at your new place
You'll learn the hard way not to give your heart away, to a liar
You had too many heartbreaks
There's somebody out there who would die for ya
Don't even know it, but they standin' in line for ya
Oh, keep your head up don't worry
Sunshine's comin' your way
Your whole family in the stands
Gon' celebrate gon' do your dance

Work for the money gon' get it girl
Show em' what you got chu a big girl
People gon' hate cause they don't know
Don't know how much you want it baby

Go girl, get it girl
Show em' whatchu got
I hope you really know that you're worth a whole lot
With the world in your hands, you ain't neva gon' stop
Naw you gon' make it to the top. (repeat 8 times)

It's scary how accurate the detailed facts in this song are in comparison to my life. Right down to "your best friend's two months from her due date. You're gonna be a Godmother very soon babe" At the time when he mentioned the song to me, my best friend was pregnant with her first child. And guess who she asked to be the Godmother? Me.

"Big Girl Big City" is that one little savior that reminds me to try and see myself through other's eyes... especially people who know me best, which my ex-boyfriend is most definitely one of them. I was in shock not totally because it was coming from him... but that somehow he (someone, anyone) believed all these wonderful and positive things about me, my work ethic, my potential and my life.... that I have so much to offer, that I'm worth so much more than I think, that I have the world in my hands and that I was going to make it to the top. I'm not saying I don't believe any of these things about myself, but I definitely have my share of doubts. Big time. But this song tells me that he doesn't. How is it that I have so many... but he is so confident in me? It's so hard to explain how much that means to me. I'm almost positive it was not a big deal for him, but it's something I will never forget. I'm a lucky girl for the people God has placed in my life... I really am.